My beauuuutiful bday gift from Carrie finally arrived ^_^
Then one day you turn around and find they’re like a balloon, so far out of reach that they’re up there in the sky, a tiny little speck of color, and you’re not even sure you have hold of the string at all. And, of course, it isn’t as though people were standing still while I was putting my shit back together. They were doing their things, living their lives, achieving their goals, growing and changing. So now as I’m turning around and realizing that there’s distance there which wasn’t there a year and a half ago, that someone(s) I was dearly close to are people at the end of that proverbial string, the question is: are we even friends anymore? Is there a *there* to find? It’s an incredibly painful realization, that the cost of what I’ve been through may be that I’ve been a shitty friend, both due to disconnectedness and to pain, and I have definitely, and may have lost more friends than I know as a result. That’s a price that I didn’t count on paying.
Taken this morning while I stood in the rain. I was so happy I almost cried <3 #oakland #lakemerritt
A meter maid with a ticket? Meta!! :p #sanfrancisco